March 27, 2011

My Favorite Frittatta

Filed under: Fuel a.k.a what I eat, recipes — myjourneyfromfattofit @ 11:21 am

As the title says this is my absolute favorite frittatta! The recipe, and I use that term loosely because I never really have recipes when I cook it’s more like a mish mash of stuff and cross your fingers hope it tastes good.  So anyway, as I was starting to say this is my adaptation of a frittatta recipe in January’s Clean Eating Magazine.

I start with 4 whole eggs, 4 egg whites

I peel and grate one medium to large-sized potato, a medium apple, usually a carrot (if I have one around) and finely chop one small onion.  Then I put those ingredients into a large non-stick skillet, cook and set aside.

Whisk together eggs and egg whites with skim milk, cayan pepper and parsley.  Combine the pre-cooked mixture above with the eggs. Transfer back to the non-stick skillet and cook over a medium low heat until the top is somewhat dry, then flip the frittatta over to cook the other side and cover with lid to kind of steam cook it the rest of the way.

Slide it onto a serving platter, slice it up, garnish with fruit or whatever you like to eat it with. Enjoy!

This meal has a tonne of protein, good carbs, good fats and fiber!


March 21, 2011

Jet Fuel

Filed under: Fuel a.k.a what I eat — Tags: , , — myjourneyfromfattofit @ 12:04 pm

It’s Monday and I am fully committed to perfecting my fuel for the week.  I follow the principles of clean eating which means no refined sugars, no processed “food”, good fats (yes there is such a thing), little to no caffeine, lean proteins and complex carbs.  It also means that I fire up my metabolism by eating 5-6 times a day. your probably saying well no wonder your fat stop eating so often! However, the best way to lose weight is to eat – yes I said it – eat and lose! 3 meals, 2 or 3 snacks per day depending on how hungry I am or what my body needs.  I have a tendency to eat the same meals over and over – mostly because I’m too busy between school and work to take the time to prepare diverse meals, but also I have to admit to a bit of sheer laziness added to the mix as well.

the thing with losing weight and getting healthy is that while exercise is very necessary, it really is mostly what passes over your lips that will make the most difference.  there is no point in being a gorilla in the gym if your going to keep all those lovely muscles your building hidden under the extra fats, sugars and sheer amount of calories you eat each day.  Processed foods that do nothing but make you hungrier and increase your cravings will not help you get to that fit tight body you dream of having. It took me a long time to accept this and even longer to embrace it – but now I couldn’t go back to my old way of eating myself to death.  instead I choose to fuel myself into health and longevity

here is an example of what I eat in a day:


1c. oatmeal w berries, cinnamon, nutmeg and flax


2 whites 1 yolk omega 3 egg omelette with spinach, mushrooms and goat cheese

Snack 1: 1/2c. low-fat low sodium cottage cheese with fresh fruit


grilled chicken breast with whatever veggies are around


can of albacore tuna packed in water, mixed with sesame oil, lime juice, balsamic vinegar, cayan pepper, garlic, other herbs either with mixed veggies or on a bed of romaine lettuce (no iceberg there is very little nutritional value in iceberg lettuce)

Snack 2: 1 medium-sized apple and about 10-15 raw unsalted almonds


lean protein – such as chicken breast, turkey, fish or on occasion lean cut of beef.  I usually grill whatever protein I’m going to have

more veggies or a salad

Snack 3 (if needed): serving of greek yogurt mixed with cocoa powder or cinnamon

*** I drink as much water as I can during the day, in the morning I usually have one decaf hazelnut vanilla coffee, with a little skim milk or sometimes I treat myself with some 2% milk (I will be giving up my beloved coffee soon and making my own flavored coffee as I just discovered the flavourings in the one I normally drink are artificial – no chemicals for this grrl!) and I drink a mountain of decaf herbal teas as much as I want

March 15, 2011

I lost myself

Filed under: Thoughts for the day — Tags: , , , , — myjourneyfromfattofit @ 9:03 am

I haven’t written in a few days because I have been busy wallowing.  Last week my partner told me that he was moving out.  He is miserable and does not wish to be here anymore.  wonderful.  Our living situation is not the best nor probably the most condusive to a normal adult relationship.  You see a couple of years ago I decided I did not like my life so I chose to return to school again and get a new degree.  In that time period I also chose to live with family.  I have an apartment in the basement of my mother’s home. It works out nicely for both of us – I get cheap living quarters and mom gets help around the house when she needs it.  So my partner moved into this situation with me almost 2 years ago and has since gone from a kind, happy person to miserable and now he is leaving. fine. whatever. I was angry. We argued. He ended our relationship.  just when I am within sight of my degree and a better life he throws in the towel. I hate you. I love you. Go away now! Stay with me.

3 days without the gym. I just started back. who cares eat some chocolate.  I need to run. my body won’t carry me far enough. You step through the door I feel physical pain. Leave. just leave. go as soon as possible. oh God don’t leave. *sigh* this is hell. please please leave.

still no gym. time to wallow some more. sleep it off. sleep plays with me but wont climb in bed. get up. get wasted. comfortably numb. ahh sleep here you are I’ve missed you. climb in. wrap your arms around me.

saturday morning. the sun is shining. I feel dark like the night is still wrapped around me. shake it off. food. 2 eggs, cayan pepper, black pepper, cinamon raisin toast. Decaf vanilla hazelnut coffee. oh God thats good. thats comfort. your still asleep on the couch. seeing you makes my stomach lurch. get dressed. get out. gym. must run this out of me.

sweat dripping. heavy breathing. legs burning. this I know. This is ME. The dark begins to lift. I am free. I am FREE. I have so much good happening. How did I forget? oh you. I am no longer just an extension of you. I lost myself. You stole my me away. I am taking me back. in a few weeks I will be away from you. you can leave but I am leaving you too. internship. life goes on. MY life goes on.

talk. talk to me. talk about what you really want. listen. put away your defences. listen. really listen to what I want. not this. chaos, sadness. talk. try it again. or not. see how things go. things are going 5 hours away from you. 12 weeks without you. see if you can change in 12 weeks. I will be changed.  maybe you will join me in change. maybe you will be in the same place. I won’t be.

I found me again in the gym. I was lost. lost in school. lost in you. lost in chocolatey unhappiness. the sweat and pain led me back to ME. I will not lose me again. maybe you will stay. maybe not. but ME, I’m not going anywhere.

March 8, 2011

Dear Scale

Filed under: Thoughts for the day — Tags: , , — myjourneyfromfattofit @ 2:37 pm

I am writing to you my scale this morning to tell you that I hate you.  you make me crazy.  you make me neurotic.  I want to love you but you make me loathe myself and for that I hate you.

You have all these rules and secret handshakes that I must comply with just to make you happy.  I must weigh myself in the morning (only after using the facilities NOT before). I MUST weigh myself naked – God forbid my jammies add any “extra” weight.  if I weigh myself after I shower the number goes up!  If I weigh myself after I work out the number goes UP! I sweat and slave and yet you increase that little red number! you are a cruel mistress dear scale.  you take pleaseure in my undoing.  your flashing red display mocking me with those three little numbers.

You make me hop on EVERY SINGLE MORNING just to see if going to bed hungry helped the cause and you laugh at my delusional hopes as you flash the same number again and again. UUGGGGHHHH I HATE YOU!

Dear scale your toxic.  I must limit my time with you until you learn how to behave. So as of today you will no longer be living in the bright wide open expanse of my bathroom floor.  Your new home will be in the back of my closet, nice and dark and lonely.  From now on I will only visit you twice a month.  I’m sorry to do this but you brought it on yourself.  learn how to play nice like the measuring tape and maybe just maybe I’ll let you come out more often.  But for now off to the closet with you!

March 7, 2011

Borrowing my determination

Filed under: Thoughts for the day — Tags: , , , — myjourneyfromfattofit @ 2:26 pm

I have been on this journey for a while now and some days are better than others.  My bf gave me a gym membership for xmas, yes he is still living and breathing haha! I actually wanted the membership.  How else am I going to get to where I want no NEED to be?  I have to confess though that until about 2 weeks ago I have been wasting his money.  I could not get the courage, yes courage up to go to the gym.  This is strange for me because I used to be a regular at the gym, I went faithfully 5-6 times a week, did an hour of cardio and an hour of weights.  I used to raise eyebrows in the good ‘ol boys club that is the free weight section because I could lift just like those good ‘ol boys in fact in most cases I could lift more. *sigh*

I have this memory of myself in great shape, friends describing me as athletic. Can you imagine? me! Athletic!!!  Those memories instead of motivating me as they should contributed to this negative tape in my head playing over and over: “your too fat to do this”, ” your too out of shape to even climb the stairs to the gym”

I remember what it was like to be fit, and i know how much work i have to do to get back there and it scared me so much it took away my motivation and determination.

Then I started to feel guilty about not using my membership and wasting my bf’s hard earned dough, soooo I forced myself to get off my big butt and went to the gym.  it was not pleasant but it was also not as humilitating as I had imagined.  However, the next day I could not muster the determination to go again and stayed away for several days. 

then I was reading a post by one of my professors and she was talking about borrowing what we need to get us to where we want to be.  borrow your motivation, your determination etc. 

hmmm borrow you say? Borrow I did.  I borrowed from the fitness models I see in health magazines, I borrowed from the fit grrl I used to be, I borrowed from my friend in Italy who lives the life she always dreamed of.  in short i borrowed from everywhere I could think of and subsequently it has brought me through the doors of that gym 4 days last week and I hope 5 this week. 

Maybe by next week I won’t need to borrow, but if I do I know where to go looking.

The Begining

Filed under: Thoughts for the day — Tags: , , , — myjourneyfromfattofit @ 1:49 pm

my journey started in September, it’s been a bumpy ride so far and the following are a few entries from the early days.  I began a journey of Clean Eating – that means no processed foods, no refined sugars, no chemical sweeteners or additives.  This is not an easy habit to change after a lifetime of eating everything I am no longer allowing into my body.  I hope you enjoy sharing my journey.

weds. Oct. 13, 2010

I have spent my life gaining and losing weight.   When this challenge came along it was at just the right moment for me to say, “ok, this is your time to take care of you” and I jumped aboard.  I decided a couple of years ago that I didn’t like my life anymore so I returned to University again to obtain another degree.  At this point I am in the home stretch, and while I was excited I was also horrified.  you see I went back to school to get a degree in Therapeutic Recreation, to help people get back to independent leisure functioning.  My horror is at the fact that 2 years ago I was fit, I fueled my body properly, I lifted weights and ran 5k 3times a week.  I was the perfect example of what a TR person should be.  Then I fell off the bandwagon, hard.  I became the typical student and slowly stopped all my exercising and began convenience eating.  I made the excuses that with 6 courses a term and 30 hours a week work I had no time for exercise and good food.  With the excuses came the weight again.  I look in the mirror now and am completely disgusted, I am so fat I look like I might be preggo! I don’t have a muffin top I have a tractor tire on top of my pants!

I must confess I am a complete sugar, carb and chocolate junkie – if there was a way I could eat only white bread with butter, white pasta with lots of cheese and chocolate and be healthy that is literally all I would ever eat again! soooo the first few days of EC were shear torture.  I spent so much time in the bathroom because my body was freaking out at the real food and actual nutrients that I was considering putting my pillow and blanket in there and just camping out!  Every second of the day I was craving something, ANYTHING!!!! At one point my boyfriend made a sandwhich and the smell of the bread just about sent me into a tailspin I was ready to leap across the couch and tackle him for it!

A few days in and my body calmed down a bit and things got easier – I love to cook and it has been fun being creative in the kitchen – last week I made an eat clean lasagne and served it to my family without telling them it was EC and they loved it!  I am sleeping better, my belly feels less bloated, I have more energy already and I lost 10 pounds and fit into a pair of jeans that have spent the last year in the back of my closet!

I was elated! so elated in fact that I agreed to go out to dinner with my man – so so so sooooo not a good idea.  we went for chinese buffet – that pretty much says it all – buffet – oink oink – what a HUGE mistake! I was never so sick in all my life as I was after I ate that “meal” you would think that would be enough of a lesson – nooooooo it started a ball rolling and I spent the last week eating all the garbage I could find – suddenly my body is used to crap again – and that is what actually scared me into getting back on the EC bandwagon.

 I am now once again craving junk feeling sluggish and working right beside the candy isle yesterday at my job was like dangling herion in front of a junkie – it was actually painful not to dive into it! LOL

I hope that this week was my lesson and I can stay on the eat clean path – I have about 82 pounds left I need to lose to be healthy

Dear sugar,

Oh how I have loved our cosy little moments on the couch and in the car,
all those secret times we met and I hid your wrappers in my dresser,
I even loved the thrill you gave me from our clandestine meetings.

But alas, dear sugar my jeans are not so much your fan as I am and
they have given me an ultimatum, its either you or them,
unfortunately I like my jeans more than I like you so,
I have no choice, we are breaking up, today

don’t be sad you will find another sugar mama to take my place
i wish you all the best, no hard feelings
but i really want to get back together with my jeans
so you have to go



Fri. Oct. 15,2011

Sabotage my Sabotage

the title says it all……I really need to once and for all kick the shinola outta my self-sabotaging ways!  I was knocking the hell outta this whole eat clean thing….was *sigh* I started on labour day and after a couple of days I was getting in my EC groove, I was losing weight, feeling great, less bloated…life was good on the EC train.  then KABLAM!!! I collided with a choclate bar.  Actually it was a multi treat pile up in my mouth if I’m to be purrfectly honest….chocolate, pop, chips, cake, candy, fast food.  If I’m gonna fall off the wagon I’m fallin hard for sure LOL Once again like my experience with chinese buffet after EC I became better acquainted with all the tiles in my bathroom, I thought I might have to start having my mail delivered there I was in there sooooo long.  So you would think that would teach me…..HA! not likely! as much as my body was yelling WHAT ARE YOU THINKING???? my brain was answering it with ummmm I’m thinking chocolate and cheeseburgers and milkshakes OH MY!

I lost 10 pounds in a little over 2 weeks on the EC and then here I go and sabotage myself????? what the eff? I spent the last week and a half eating my way back to finding 8 of those lost 10 pounds! I would have loved to throw my scale out the window, but it’s not the scales fault I ate like a pig and didn’t put anything remotely healthy into my body for a week straight

I wrote sugar my break up letter – and I actually meant it – yet here I am living with your pain in the butt side effects again……I’m so good at breaking up with people who are no good to me …….why is it so so sooooooo hard to break up with food that treats me wrong? is there such a thing as a sugar restraining order? ohhhh wait thats called willpower right? well I need to buy me some of that! haha.

I’m back on the bandwagon again and I plan on this being a permanent move…but I have to confess that it took me 2 days to stop thinking about eating clean again and actually DOING IT! Today I feel like I’m coming off some serious drugs, I’m lethargic, my head has been pounding all day and I have some serious trumpet trousers on today girls! haha! but…..i know that I just need to keep doing the right thing and in another day or two I’ll feel good and eventually i’ll look good.

I keep hearing the beastie boys song sabotage blasting in my head…maybe thats it I need to compile a play list to keep me on the eat clean train..hmmmm milkshake by kelis, cherry pie by warrant……okey maybe not so much  

so I’m not really a debbie downer….. and I realllllllyyy am not whiney….well ok I kind of am…just a little…..just when I want my boyfriend to do something for me LOL but anyway I digress……

Tues. Nov.2,2010

Halloween Smalloween
I have been a little stress ball lately about Halloween – you see it’s my favorite time to binge – ok well next to my birthday, my mom’s birthday, christmas, exam time etc etc. LOL alright it’s just a time of year I normally rationalize my binge.  I am working part time in retail while I finish up my second degree and all day long people come through my cash with boxes upon boxes of chocolate bars and candy and I have been seriously tempted to slide a few boxes under the counter instead of in thier bag!  I have really wanted to just caress and hug those bad little treats passing under my nose every 10 seconds.

so needless to say the last couple of weeks has been a battle of my will – I have not eaten any Halloween candy but I did go out and buy myself an 85% cocoa choco bar and had a little affair with it. I wanted to take it to bed and roll around it with it that’s how bad i wanted that chocolate bar haha!

I’ve also been working evenings the last week and subsequently have missed my boxing class – I have to say i have noticed that my energy has been lower and I’ve been kind of lazy as well – i just came home from work and sacked out on the couch with the man.

as a result I have not lost a single pound this week – first time since i started the EC lifestyle that I have not lost anything – now I know there are  plateau periods btu i don’t think I have done enough to really hit a plateau phase yet  – I really  feel it’s because I allowed myself to get a little lazy and ate a giant chocolate bar 85% cocoa or no the serving size was NOT the entire bar LOL

soooooo I am committing to making sure I work out at home any night that I work to late to make it to boxing – I have a gazzillion work out videos I certainly have no excuse not to be utilizing them – I’m kicking my own butt back on the train and staying focused – i have a single minded obsession to become the healthiest, fittest, most athletic person I can be

** shortly after this post I ended up leaving my boxing class for the time being.  I injured my wrist and decided I needed to get used to moderate activity before taking on such an advanced activity.

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